I am a little tired of running. There, I said it. Not that I hate running or anything, but this has been a very challenging marathon cycle. I am just not feeling it right now. Both my regular running partners have gotten pregnant in the past year, and as a result I have ended up training for this race alone. All alone. I am sooooo lonely!!! I absolutely love running physically. It is my stress relief and makes me feel better. But I equally love running for the "girl time" it has provided me. The time one-on-one with a friend to just talk things out over the miles and visit. I have been running for months now all by myself, and let me tell you, it's just not as much fun! My running has become more of a chore than an outlet, and I just hate that. Since it has been so dark in the mornings, I have fallen on my only option I feel safe with at 5am, the treadmill at the gym. Wow. If that doesn't scream exciting I don't know what does:) I run for an hour several mornings every week before work at the gym, and that is just boring! The only run I get outside is my long run on the weekends. And while I love being outside in the fresh air and sunshine, running 18 and 20 miles by myself is not that much fun either. I have found myself dreading Saturday mornings and piddling around the house just to prolong having to go run alone for hours. Somehow I have pushed myself through this training cycle and am getting close to the end, thank goodness!! Almost every weekend I decide to just quit and not even run the race, but somehow I carry on and get the miles done. I hit the wall this weekend physically and mentally. I had a bad run. I was supposed to run 16-18 miles, but ended up calling it quits after 12. My pace was spot on so I knew it wasn't physical. I just could not get my mind to cooperate. I just did NOT WANT TO RUN. I was so disappointed in myself. But I am just exhausted. My day starts at 4:30am almost every single day, and 3 days this week I have worked all day and then been out after work until bedtime. I know that I only have so much physical energy, but it stinks when you need to get something done and are just too tired. I am worn out. Training is tiring, work is tiring, and I am tired! My marathon is in 3 weeks, and I am hoping to find a good balance between training consistently and letting my body rest between now and then. I am looking for some motivation and inspiration, so if anyone has any feel free to send it my way!! Hopefully my excitement will pick up closer to race week and I will find my running groove:)
I got an early Christmas present from Silas this year. A new tree!!! I have been been more and more disappointed each year as I pulled out my old tree. The poor branches were broken and hanging down and half the lights would not come on. I loved that tree, but it was on its last leg. Silas told me last weekend that I could go pick out a new one, so we had a fun family day of Christmas tree hunting:)
It's pretty much like my old tree, just a little bigger. And all the lights work! The boys love it and of course cannot keep their hands off it.
I finally got it decorated after having it up for a week and I love it. I can't believe December will be here in just a few days!! I run a marathon on December 1st, and I just can't believe it's almost here. I haven't really had much time to think about it with traveling and all the holidays. I guess it's time to get my head in the game this week and focus. I just looked up the 10 day weather forecast and there is a chance of rain on race day, which would not be good. I am hoping they are wrong and we have a beautiful and cold race morning:)
