All About Me
I am sure the next thing everyone is wondering is when will we be wanting the next little Orbison cutie? The answer to that is whenever God blesses us with one:) I learned with Tyson that none of that is in my control, so I am not expecting the next one to be either. Do I have plans and ideas about when I want it to be? Of course. But I know that plans don't always go the way you want and things tend to work out better when you just go with the flow. I guess the best I can give you is that we definitely want more little ones at some point:)
I think it is pretty sad that it takes me so long to adjust to things, but being a mom is everything I wanted and nothing like I expected it to be. It is really hard for me to be at home some days, as I am very task oriented and a neat freak. If I try to measure my success as a mother by my usual standards, then I feel like a huge failure on a daily basis. I get almost nothing done during the day (Silas will tell you I get tons done, but I usually don't feel that way!) and the house is always a wreck (again, according to my perfectionist standards.) But I am blessed at the end of the day to have a wonderful husband who reminds me of all the ways I have been successful in caring for our son and nurturing his growth in every way. Though I may not see the tangible results of my efforts immediately, I am coming to see them in the little ways when I take the time to sit and really watch all the things my little boy can do. Though my home may not always be in tip top shape like I want, I am learning to enjoy, OK tolerate, some of the mess, do the things that are important, and let the ones that aren't go.
Looking back over this last year, there have been so many changes, and major ones at that. I am proud to say that while I may not always be in the best shape, I have weathered whatever storms have come my way, thanks to the help and prayers of many!!! While I have not always been able to say this and truthfully mean it, I can say without a doubt that I am living the life I have always dreamed of. I have my struggles on a daily basis, but this life is more than I could have ever imagined. I am working on appreciating it on a daily basis, which is not always easy:) I am so thankful for my family, both immediate and extended. I am so grateful to have such a steady and gentle husband who is able to see the best in me and love me unconditionally through all of my faults. I am thankful for a healthy and happy little boy who makes my day better just because he is in it. I am thankful to serve a mighty God who is in control so I don't have to be.
posted by Lauren at
9:03 AM
3 Comments:
Thanks for the reminder of what its all about. I read something yesterday that said "It's not about waiting for the storms to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!" Ty really has changed you so much, for the better:) All 3 of us are so blessed to have landed such wonderful, mellow husbands to balance us out, too! You are a beautiful woman and mother, inside and out, and I'm always very proud of you:) Love you
That was a great update, and the new pics are beautiful! You look amazing and so happy too. I love you and can't wait to see you soon. Love you, Renee
What a great post! Thank you for being so honest and real.
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